:Love is Blind"

Love is really blind and I could prove that, people could prove that especially, people who was being blind by LOVE.
I am still a teenager 15 years old for now, and I started to be in a serious relationship when I was 13, and I could say now, that I am too young and I didn't even notice at that time. I was so blind and ignorant that I couldn't control my own thoughts maybe because of my "curiosity". I thought I could be someone in his life until I graduated college, we planned together that we'll wait, our relationship could be describe as faithful but, hidden. "Relationship won't grow in a hidden process of LOVE" I know that I will not be allowed by my parents to be in a relationship especially my brother, my brother is more like a father to me and I promised that I won't be in a relationship until, the right time comes, but when I promised I already broke it before I say the word "Promise" because I already have and I am in a relationship at that time. I could say that I am so right at that time for some reasons like, he became my inspiration, he lessens my loneliness, I felt loved, I feel so protected and comfortable but now, I realized I don't need all of it for now, it's not the right time, I have a complete happy family to be with, who could fill all the reasons I said and it could be more than that.
Now, that I am out of the in L-O-V-E situation, I could say that I am so wrong and I regret it, I moved on but, not to the point that I plant grudges and hatred in my heart, maybe I planted some but, when the time comes that I realized all of these, the grudges and hatred all died and replaced with life and happiness. I thought I won't be able to move on but, I did it's just that your mid says no even if you can, "it's the free will" that makes you do everything you want, if you want that to happen you can if you would, don't say you can't if you didn't try it yet. "Don't judge your future if you aren't still there, because you never know"
all things change as how time passes by, it doesn't stop so there's always a way, and there's always hope.

*Learn*
"SMART PEOPLE LEARN ON OTHERS MISTAKE,
STUPID PEOPLE LEARN ON THEIR OWN."

and I admit, I became stupid in terms of love because I was BLIND and became deaf because I keep my ears hear all those wisdom from other people but, I just ignored it, that makes me so stupid that I rely on my own understanding and decisions.

I'm so sorry for my brother, he trusted me but, I broke his trust for me, I was so deaf and stupid,
He was hurt and he never deserves to be hurt by me.

"If i have the chance to..."

If I have the chance to love again,
I would take the risk but, in the right time.
If I have the chance to move on,
I did it already.
If I have the chance to go back,
I would without doubts.
If I have the chance to go back to someone,
it would depend.
But, if I have the chance to go back to someone who broke up with me,
I won't have doubts to say NO.
N-O.
(for now)

tralalalalal..
Give yourself a space and realize the things that you never did.

"I MOVED ON"

I had a friend,
way back home @ Davao..
She is a funny friend.. She changed me a looott.. than who I am before, I began to be someone I'm not but I should be..
But, that's not my point in my story..
When I left going @ U.S , in instance her love of her life went here to but, somewhere that's far where I am now.. we're both in a stage of Moving On.. trying to figure things out without the person / people who you trust or whom you love..
oh well, moving on is always been part of our life, we just use this term more common than adjustment..
but then, from December to May most likely t's already been 5 months had passed since that moving on thing.. I asked her let's just say: "Do you still <3 him?" and this was her reply: "somewhere deep deeep deep deep way deeepper sa heart ko love ko prin XD!" ohyea..  don't want to state the whole reply but this was the mesg. she meant ..
and my point, no matter how you break up with someone even though how hard it was to accept, you can still figure out within yourself that you ove that person "no matter what" / "unconditionally" but, we know as time passes by in our lives it changes the habit, lifestyles, thoughts and feelings as well, no matter how hard we try not to change but it's just the reality that we can't control, maybe some people do, but I have no idea how...

This is what life is.. Full of mysteries and it's interesting . :) so always take the risk.

"Being Brave Isn't Enough Without determination"

Bravery isn't the key for everything,
 for winning something ?
A BIG NO !. You can't win without examining your inner energy, without a determination within you..
What is bravery ? and what is determination?
Bravery is shown when a person fights his/her fear, he/she is taking a risk knowing that it is possible for him/her to fail on what he/she is doing.
And determination is when a person has a fixed goal and he/she is striving to aim it, even though he/she knows it's hard but when he/she is determined he/she perseveres to do what it takes to aim what he/she wanted, it's his/her direction in life, it's what a person wants to achieve.

Let's say you are in a competition, and of course, when you are a contestant your goal is to win. So, we know that being part of  a competition isn't an easy task and even we're used to be in a competition, sometimes we just feel nervous and that's how bravery comes in.. we find our inner strength to face the fears inside us, we have this thoughts coming in our mind that inspires us, maybe it's from someone we really know or from someone's wisdom that makes us strong.
When the contest starts, we're already brave to face that kind of challenge, without turning back and when the contest is about to end, and the opponent has a high score than you, it's the time that determination glows inside you, you will make yourself remember every single training you did before that contest and you will persevere to aim what you want, to reach your goal, to beat your opponent and to win.

Bravery and Determination is already in you when you first accept that kind of challenge, you're brave to accept and take the risk even you know it's possible to lose and determination shows up when you train yourself for that prize "to win" and you should not lose hope whenever you lose or you got beaten up, as long as you did what you can do and you did the right thing and always put in mind life is a journey it's a long long trip and there's so many places you could go as long as you take the risk and you did the best that you can and no regrets shows up.. :)

"When You Lose Hope"

For sure in person's life, they've experienced losing HOPE,
even just in little things, in school, in a game, in everything that tests us.
We're not that perfect to accomplish things the way we want it to be,
but, we know deep in ourselves that we could.
All that we need is perseverance and determination in order to pursue what we need,
but it's just that, there are instances that keep us away from the goal we want to aim, that's what we called "barrier" and sometimes it causes us to be hopeless.

But, if we we're going to try, looking ourselves in the sight of others, for sure that confidence we had before will be ragained again, but, it really takes time, it's not just a one snap of our hand and then, we are back again, it's just that we need to take more time to adjust.

When you Lose HOPE,
think of what you really are,
who are you, why did you lose hope?
just reflect in every aspects of your life,
if what had happened, and then try to make a change on yourself,
to bring back of what you really are.

"Trying to forget the past"

Past experiences makes you feel good and others makes you bad..
It's part of the life we had to accept, we need to know and learn to live with it.
Our past makes us grow, makes us become mature and creates who we are today.
What we had in past is in the past, we can't do it again in present the way it happens.

Some experiences we had, we want to bring back again.. some of it, we hope that it never happens, which particularly says that Life isn't fair and things in our Life doesn't always happens the way we want it to be..

Let's just say,
There's an embarrassing moments in our life that makes us feel bad, we lose our self-esteem because of what happened.. but, what happen, happens .. past always stays in the past it never happens in the future anymore..

"Life is not about finding yourself, it's about creating yourself.."

so don't waste your time in every circumstances that you know you will not grow. Life is too short, do what you can do and take a risk . <3

"Love Moves in Mysterious Ways"

Love moves in mysterious ways..
we don't know where it will happen, when it will happen and who is the person behind it.
Love is Magical and full of surprises..
We don't know how to define it in just a word, but we know how to feel it..
Love is more than a feeling we deserve to feel.
It's not just about the person and you but it also matters the person that surrounds you.
Relationship won't grow in a hidden process of Love..
It must be real, open and selfless..


Don't let the relationship ruin your relationship with others,
that's the biggest mistake you'll ever do and the biggest regret you can make, if that kind of a person doesn't deserve the pain.