I found something while I'm cleaning my stuff, and the thing that I found was the one that I wrote in a piece of paper while I'm still adjusting and that was the time that I had a hard time of forgetting what I had in my past.
This is what I wrote:
"Having doubts in a situation is really confusing, even if you know what's right, there's still second thought that makes you more confuse and your mind doesn't know what to choose."
"I don't know if NOT loving someone makes me empty, or is it just me who pressured myself for something."
"Six months passed, I moved on with the heartbreak stuff but, it makes me so empty even if I'm not. I'm so full, my mind is, as if there's no tomorrow but deep inside I am so empty, I feel so empty. I know love is like a drug as what other people say, that it is so addictive but sometimes it is too much that it comes to the point you need space and stop loving because it becomes so unhealthy for a person and it is a pain and when you cannot help it, you need to go to the rehab where you can be treated and heal that wound which is your broken heart. How we wish that there is a place for rehabilitation of the people who have broken hearts but, it seems like that would not happen."
When I read this quotes that I wrote, I never thought that I thought about this before, as if I never wrote it and I was not the person who wrote it anymore. Painful to think, but happy to encounter. My past would be a very great experience for me and those memories were the ones I will carry and remember for a lifetime.
-Faye
