Well, it is.
Change may be better for you and bad for others, they just don't accept the fact that you change from the person they thought you were.. But sometimes in life we also thought the the "OLD US" were US but, the truth is we are still exploring the "Real us", when we could express what we wanted to express and not scared of showing something that is part of us. Because the truth is sometimes we are oppressed by our own insecurities and anxieties that we can't show the things that is part of us.
To come to my point.. it's not about CHANGE.. it's about "YOU"
Well, in this instance I'm pointing to myself.
I just thought that the old me was me.. But then one day came, and I realized that I am gradually changing I just can't point out what changed in me, but I know I (somewhat) change. (yung bang alam mong parang feeling mo na may nakalimutan ka, di mo lang matukoy kung ano) -- I feel that way...
I know this is not the type of change that one day you wake up and you see yourself totally different.. Well, there's nothing like that.. I mean change is not like, in just a blink of an eye or a snap on a finger or as fast as the bubbles pop. Change is gradual, step by step.. like a turtle or a snail slowly taking their moves or steps.
One more thing that I am really proud I overcome.. I MOVED ON ! in terms of love life.. I just realized it's not really the right time, the perfect moment.. Maybe I just took a fast ride instead of walking to my life step by step... There were times I said to myself that I know what risks I am taking, I know that this feeling I am feeling is true, that this is what they called true love but then... as time passes by I realized it's not.. well, that's life.
I admit that there are times in my life that I close my ears and mind to others' words of wisdom but there are also times that I listened, but I just didn't do what they are telling me which is my mistake.. (pointing out your mistakes are good, because you know what you need to fix --even though it's hard.. the thing is that at least you know.) For all the teenagers .. who think that you are worth entering a relationship just think thoroughly.. give that guy or yourself a time.. let them wait or yourself wait and see if they are sincere or if you are sincere.. because when I entered the relationship, I am still "unsure" of what I am feeling even though I am telling myself that "I am really sure" .. That's what they say... "you will never know/realize your mistakes once you are inside a relationship because "you are blinded by (what you think) "love" is." You need to come out on that situation and see the whole picture and point out the wrongs and mistakes, so that you can fix it...
OK. back to my changes.. Well, this past few days, I realized and thought about dreaming.. before I had dreams but they are not realistic dreams and more on fairy tales (I love fairy tales by the way -- I used to believe in happily ever after--).. but now I am trying to visualize myself as an actress, singer, performer or a person who has a privileged or a high position in a job, or I am having a successful business. My financial and other achievements will be for my mama and papa and my family or other people who needs help. This visualization is not my thing at all (AT ALL) before.. but now I am becoming more realistic, more inspired because of my family and I know no matter what happen they're not going to turn their backs on me (unlike your bfs/gfs --when you fail they'll get discourage (some of them -- i'm not saying all) but, my point is getting your inspiration in the people you know who loves you and you love back is priceless.)
Change is good for you as long as you change for the better, being a better person (helping others and loving others as you love yourself -- that is being better).
